Zazen (seated meditation in Zen) is at once a bare-bones form of meditation and at the same time, it is not one. Historically it’s a twice-millennial practice passed on through generations by the Buddha as the unique gateway to liberating humans from the rounds of birth and death and the suffering that comes from being trapped in Samsara, the world of delusion and ignorance. But also it is not meditation in the sense you ordinarily understand it to be.
This practice has no object and is not meant to be a means towards some end, it is not meant to take you from here to anywhere in particular. If anything it is meant to help you realize that ultimately there is no getting from here and going there for there is no coming and going. Or if there is, there is no one doing the coming and going.
Clearly, there is a paradox at the heart of Zen practice and Zen meditation. The sitting that is nothing other than the sitting is what this practice is about. The Japanese name for it is Shikantaza: just sitting.
The emphasis here is on the word "just." Just being wholeheartedly in full awareness of body, mind, and breath, present to the unfolding of this practice of moment to moment of just sitting. Encountering the resistances and discomforts that inevitably arise as you sit in the openness of just this moment, just this sitting, just this being.
Slowly becoming intimate with the resistance. Noticing the arising of your cravings and aversions and the tensions they create inside. Then the next moment, in the next awareness of body-mind-breath presence to this moment returning to just sitting. Returning to the release and ease of this just sitting.
Zazen is the practice of paying one’s full attention to just this moment in its arising and falling as silence and stillness come upon you.
When there is justness in the just of sitting, being simply here present to this moment, time and space collapse, and all mental categories collapse. In the absence of mental construes, I face the timeless, the boundless in the sheer openness of this moment that is nothing other than this moment of: here I am, showing up completely for one's life!
Meditation is the art of just sitting beyond the projections of the mind, or not being disturbed by the mind's projections. When I can just sit, just breathe, just be the being that I am, then I return quite effortlessly to a simplicity where whatever I encounter is just the being or thing that it is.
What Hamid finds compelling in the Zen way of looking at things is how we slowly begin to lose interest in projects, noble as they may be, such as enlightenment or self-realization, the more you move into experiences of immediacy, the more you sense with your pores what intimacy means. Intimacy is letting go of goals, drives, and strivings.
Intimacy with yourself, intimacy with others, intimacy with the world: The flesh of the world is being part of the silence that opens us to intimacy, resonance, and co-responding with all phenomena and beings.
If you are coming then be an expression of the intimacy of the moment of; here I am, hineni, my voice, I am just coming. I am the coming, the sitting, the breathing, the breath, the just, the thus.
He or she who realizes justness, thusness, things are they are, things just as they are is called in Sanskrit a Tathagata. Tathagata is one of the names of the Buddha.
There is hardly any place for silence in your lives as you feel even more compelled to fill all spaces with words and activity thus losing touch with what is most intimate and close to you; silence and stillness. Through meditation, you will slowly learn to settle here where at times you receive this formidable and unlike any other mind-blowing revelation: silence is the answer you have always been searching for!
Silence is the source of all the teachings, but even more so, silence is the ultimate teaching itself, the ultimate religion. Once it deeply touches your heart and mind you know you are liberated and at home, free from searching and seeking, free from paths, free from teachers and teachings.
Program
You will spend the entire duration of the retreat in silence, besides the opening and closing circle and a group sharing at the end of the retreat. The schedule will include four daily sessions of Zazen (seated meditation), Kinhin (walking meditation), meditative walks in the surrounding nature, Yin yoga, and dharma talks by Hamid. Each of these four blocks is comprised of three periods of 25 minutes of sitting and two periods of walking meditation of ten minutes each.
The program is structured in such a way as to allow guests of different levels of meditation practice to participate.
Of the 4 daily blocks of meditation in the daily program participation in three sits is required, and the fourth session, the one in the afternoon is optional.
Traditionally, at the end of a silent retreat, the participants all leave with a little time to discuss the thoughts and feelings that came up to them during the silence. However, at this retreat, you will have a group meeting on the last day, during which you can share and open up with regard to whatever you have processed during the meditation sessions.
You can explore further different aspects of the teachings to offer a framework to help you make better sense of your experience, so as to support incorporating it into your daily life.
